Category: eating disorder

Jan 26

seeing dead anorexic/bulimic

i’m pretty messed up. i’ve been pretty messed up for a couple of days.

before i seem like i’m purposely trying to have a sensational title, let me explain:

i ran into a picture of a girl who died in the bathroom. body slumped on the floor, tailbone prominent, stomach distended, left arm completely in the toilet, right side of her body totally bruised, toes locked up in apparent rigor mortis.
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Jan 16

the ed stats can’t be right

i’m looking for the latest statistics on eating disorders. it seems every site says the same thing:

  • 10 million females in the u.s. have an ed.
  • 1 million males in the u.s. have an ed.

i’ve heard these stats for at least a decade. there’s no way they’re still accurate. that’s like saying the obesity rate is the same now as it was 10 years ago, and we all know that’s not the truth.

looks like i’m going to have to pick some experts’ brains because the above facts won’t work. time for them to be updated for the 21st century.

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Dec 09

COLORed folks — share your shame, fight the stigma


here’s my latest huffington post piece:
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Dec 08

fuck ed

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Dec 06

mother daughter sanity, pt. 2

so, my mom was just taking a bath. she was in the bathroom for more than an hour. at one point, she asked me to come in and hand her the face wash. as i left the bathroom, it hit me: adia, you haven’t spent the last 45 minutes exercising fanatically! it’s little things for most people, but it was huge for me. ( Read more )

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Dec 05

not all black girls know how to eat, pt. 2

okay. the moment i’ve been dreading has arrived. stephanie is going to start talking about her eating disorder. i’m apprehensive and hope she doesn’t go into certain behaviors too much. already, i can feel myself feeling sad for her, for her experience.

okay, time to take the plunge…

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Dec 04

mother daughter sanity

my mom and i are on our 18th(?) yearly mother daughter trip. seriously. we’ve been going since i was in 5th grade. we’ve been several places in the us, from monterey and carmel and pacific grove to boston to atlanta to chicago to maui to tons of other places. and while we went to a variety of places, my mindset was often one thing: ( Read more )

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Dec 04

not all black girls know how to eat, pt. 1

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Dec 04

quashing the shame

i’ve never known a black female who’s had an eating disorder who hasn’t felt ashamed because of it.

  • not uncomfortable.
  • not embarrassed.
  • not guilty.

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Nov 23

“thank you, sausi”

whew! i seem to have an ebb and flow with posts. apparently, i’ve hit a post explosion right now.

thank you here’s my latest piece: thank you, sausi. it’s in recognition of my best friend from jh/hs and all of the support she gave me before, during, and after my eating disorder treatment. ( Read more )

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